09 December, 2005
Who is to blame
Today I read for the first time that homeless people should take some responsibility for there situation. This was on a blog from someone who reads mine. Well I have to say in the early days I blamed my parents, the government and virtually anybody I could think of. My life hasn't been perfect but the mistakes that I made were I have to say my own. Sorting them out and putting them right now that was the hardest thing. The thing is, just like everyone I suppose asking for help is difficult and when you have a thirty year drug habit things can be a little touchy but I did it and I didn't go into drug rehab. I did it still living on the streets I learned to read and write still living on the streets but when I needed the help to go further and get off the streets I got it because there where people that still cared. If I slip up ( God forbid) and take a step backwards are people still going to be there I think so because that's what life is all about trial and error. We all make mistakes some not so big but we are all supposed to learn by them. I learn new things everyday and to tell the truth I wouldn't want it to stop. Although I regret what I call my lost years. I know I am hugely to blame for them. Then again what's the point in blaming anyone. Instead of sitting on the side lines .Why not just get on with things and help where you can? After all you cannot get back what's gone. You can only improve your life for today and thinking about tomorrow isn't really much good as plans always change. So you see along the way I have learned quite a lot but without help I wouldn't have.